haix..
duno what my mother is thinking..
i son't know what will happen to her...
i am very scared tt if anything will happen to her sia..
these days, she was so weird lo.
she cannot even look at the book properly lo!
i was shock... i asked her why she couldn't see properly.
she said she feels like lookin e book in this manner. ofcoz she was advoiding me about her problems.

there is one day, she cried...
she said, 'it is meaningless...' and started to cry...
'you all only pass me the paper whenever i cry...'
and she cry agian..
i was there. just in front of her... seeing her cry.
i didn't know what to do and i continue to look at the television.
my face was on the television.. but my heart was breaking, my tears were flowing..
i am not seeing the drama, but crying.
i am crying too..!! i heart is pain.
why my mum has to cry? why? i don't know.
and i cry because i feels bad. MY MUM IS CRYING!
i want to know the answer...

today, i woke up...
she asked me if i am going to chunshen...
i said yes.
she asked me if i could dun go to chunshen, but accompany her to see a doctor.
A DOCTOR?? omg.. my heart beated very fast!
i answered, 'yes'.

because i know that even i hav gone to chunshen, somepeople will still pick on me derhs.
ytd i cried bcoz of that... haiz. make me very heart pain.
why friends become like that.
clement aways drag... until no time to buy decorations...
and nobody want to tell me when they hav the time to buy.
and everybody wanted to be involve... haiz.
maybe i dun care bout this thingy lo.
so much people going there together lorhs..
and they want everyone to hav the time to go...
i cannot let this mess going on my head.
instead, i quit myself.
i cannot do it. and clement giv us the choice to discuss about the decorations.
but in the end is the whole youth talkin and choosing about these things.
hiaz. lyk tt better. even i go also don't have a space for my choice...
their relationship is so much stronger than mine to them...
they decided to ignore what i told them n listen to the others..
can i stop saying bout this... makes me feel sad.

and i sms liyan, that i will not be going to meet them..
i am going to the doctor with my mum.
she didn't reply. hope she did told clement lo.

we took taxi there...
and my mum told me tt it was a eye doctor...
i was shock too... why she wouldn't tell me earily?? nvm...
i lead the way for her.. as she couldn't see anything so clearly lo.
and we took the life to level 12...
i walked into the thingy la.
and say smthing bout surgery...
i knew she was taking a surgery...!!! it was about $2700...
it was the.. lazer thingy lo..
makes you see clearly without any specs or contacts derhs...
i thought what has happened to her sia...
only a small prob -.-
i waited outside the room...
there is sofa, television, snacks, sweets n water for me..
wow.. quite nice arhs..
and these nurse there are so pretty lorhs..
all very young also.
and we took taxi home too...
that taxi driver very fake.. bring us all round everywhere lo.
he think i dun sia...

now, my mum has eaten e sleepin pill tt doc has given her..
duno when she will wake lo...
let her sleep ba.. x)

-weiwei-

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