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Monday, March 19, 2007
just now i typed a really really long post, but...
haiz.i really want to share to you guys know?
its really life changing.. i type agian.

for the past few weeks, i have been doing experiencing God. i was asking God what is my God-sized assigment... i keep asking and waiting for few weeks. i know something is stoping God from telling me, but i didn't tell weiwei. i jsut want to wait and see loh, it might not what i am thinking... Then, jsut last week, God spoke to me about my brother. He call me to be together agian. That is what i am goin to adjust lah, cause i was praying and asking God what i have to adjust. i really want a God-sized assignment! ya, i tried to push the thoughts away, it might be my own thinking. then ps Daniel said not to struggle, not to push the thought away.. thats the thing God want me to adjust. so, i listened. i try to concentrate in what God has put in my mind. really very heart pain loh, i really want to be with my brother agian.. but, but its just pride. i didn't know how to talk to him, then i asked God, but by the time i ask, ps Daniel has ended with a prayer.. back to cell, share to you guys about the encounter with God.but throughout the whole week, i still nv talked to him. btw, i go malaysia until thursday.. then fri don't dare to talk to him. then next day sat le.. as in ytd lah..ok, now start with ytd thingy..celebrated my birthday.. really happy to see Jayme give me something. =)i like it so much..THE CAKE! THE CAKE! i like it too..but the pic really taste like paper -.-after that the real thing has come... weiwei ask me about me n my brother. i told her i haven't talke to him loh.then she bring me n him together.. then shake hands.. really scary loh!! i don't like.. haven't talk, then need to touch liao. there is a war in my head... i am like shouting to God for help.. argh.then God give me this sudden courage which let me suddenly hold his hand. then later need to talk to him.. my mind was totally blank all the way until the end. but God always give me something to talk. weiwei helped me.. see? God provide =) then i just say it out... wow!! amazing right? then later have to end with prayer.. my bro very nervous, then pray very weird. then i have nothing in mind, but there is a urge to pray, a urge to pour something out. but i don't know what is that lah -.-then jsut after he pray-ed i start.. but i only prepared a father.. just a word.. my mind was so blank! still there is a urge to pray then i start with father.. i expect myself to say the word father then stop for awhile, but no..! it continued for minutes! i couldn't believe it.. i open my eyes and look around, my mouth is still moving!!! WOW! its so real. i cannot forget that moment.and my prayer was so good.. i don't even know what i am praying. weiwei was impressed.. she say its from the holy spirit and this is what the holy spirit want us to be. =)this is a real victory!i really hope to share it to everyone.

-Xiaowei


3:33 AM

WEI

The happiness of life is made up of minute fractions—the little soon-forgotten charities of a kiss, a smile, a kind look, a heartfelt compliment in the disguise of a playful raillery, and the countless other infinitessimals of pleasurable thought and genial feeling.