today ahyi call me reach church @ 12.30 but i reached like 12?
and i forgot to bring my hp. while ahyi smsed me that he will be super late and to teach Julian how to lead the p&w. i think because of this, Julian get scolded. SORRY JULIAN!! b4 Julian reach the church, i was sitting with Alvin cell. Adwin teach me how to play e guitar. up, up, down, down, down, up. i don't really like this way of playin e guitar leh. so i change to up, up, up, down, down, up. =) i get the song book and play different songs. haha. then Julian came and we take turns to paly e guiter n sing the song, that was fun..

when weiwei came, i sensed a very strong thingy agianst me sia! very scary. so, i don't really want to talk to weiwei, or else later something happen. ya, thats the reason loh. then i go and join Alvin cell, smore got air-con and outside no space to sit liao. haiz, i am very worried of Harry leh.. weiwei ask me why i nv join e cell and ask me if i don't love cell anymore... when i heard that, i am very dissapointed and don't know what should i do. i love cell so much.. that it cannot be compare. i always want cell to be a better cell and i will try my best. at that moment, i want to just run out to somewhere and cry but i can't. have to join the cell. when i was with e cell, i saw weiwei abit like scoldin Julian, i really cnt take it. i know, weiwei have many things to do, many problems and still have to work. i scared that something will happen to weiwei. i don't want weiwei to change! i don't know what to do. when weiwei ask me smthing, i didn't answer, i don't want to quarrel with her.. i keep praying n prayin for weiwei and for me not to be dissapointed from what she has said, cause its not from her. i am very affected by then.

when we gone up to e 2nd floor, i cannot take it anymore!
i go to the toliet n wanting to cry, but i say Julian crying at the corner. i just don't want to go out. then winnie call us go out. saw weiwei cry on peijun. i very am very sad. i told God that i know this will let our relationship closer and we will grow. i trust God will help. :) my faith is gaining.. hehe. and i keep forcing myself not to cry, i feel like huggin Julian n cry together. Jayme persevere on talkin n folowin me even when i say leave me alone PLEASE. i really couldn't help it lah. and gone to the toliet for like 3 times? but always got called out by ppl.

Harry is a guy who came to church a few months ago.. he came for a few weeks only, but i can see how hungry he is but i always laugh at him whenever he is worshiping n praising God. it makes me cannot concentrate. soon, he never come to church anymore. and i asked JingWei about him. btw, he very handsome one!! and today, he came!! i was so happy loh.. but i didn't see him dance anymore, i didn't see him sing and jump, raise his hands. i cried when i saw that. i saw his hair was dyed gold and a long stick through his ears, hands with plasters and waxed hair. i am really very scared n worried. through out the p&w i keep praying for him. i feel like hugging him, cause God told me that he need love. once a while, he will look at the lyrics and don't know if he want to sing. i will keep prayin de. i am sure God will want him to change too. He can be a very good boy if he want. i can see that.

sermon today watch 2 video and we are watching a movie next week!!!! hehe. anybody want to join me? you're wellcome here =) smore got free dinner..

today p&w really very good. Jesus reply my letter =) thanks weiwei.

after dinner, we play in cafe x)
smone's birthday and we paly with e cream.. argh.. luwi keep trying to put the cream on my face, but in the end all e cream is on his face -.- then tim also want to put on my face, but in the end he change target to hanson x) i put some on hanson, kongSheng n luwi. haha. then saw weehuat kana bully at the staircase.. haha. we join them. haha.. then we all tickle each other. wa, nico tickle very pain leh. then we also tickle sly... lol ahyi kana cho cake!!

reached home very very late. my mum very worried for me. and i said i am with ah leong's daughter, so so late. my mum knows the situation i have lah, i won't let other ppl go when they are alone or havin problems. but she say, don't always because of things like that, let yourself be too tired. my mum really very good right? hehe. not changin of mums.. -.-

then i go do quiet time. but cnt call through weiwei. i am very tired liao loh!! then i die die don't want to touch my bed, cause i haven call weiwei, so prevent me from sleepin until tml morning, i lie on my parents bed while they are watchin television in their room. then hug my dad x) lol. then later i cnt tahan liao so sms weiwei to tell her tml loh.

wa, today post kindy long eh?

-Xiaowei

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