Tuesday, May 15, 2007
my results is really bad.
i am gonna go to ite..
Mmm.. ite? good ma?
don't dare to think lah.
if anyone of you thinks i am smart,
you're wrong..
soso wrong!
express so what?
PSLE high only mah.
when get into sec 1 cnt cope at all.
cnt adjust so much lah.
and i finally study in sec 2...
this is the 1st time i study for test!!
can you believe it?
and i am not really improving but..
haiz..
still don't know what should i do.
spirit of excellence?
i try..
i want to study hard for SA2.
and i aim for almost 90 for every sub.
too high? hiaz.
i know i can do it.
i know i can learn.
i know i have the potential.
but i am lazy.
this really makes me crazy!!
i hate it.
if someone know how lazy i am,
you will get it.
and i try so hard to study for just 1 hr.
just, just so hard..
to keep awake all times.
i always fall asleep.
when i tell my friends that
i am gonna work very hard,
they say i am not gonna get into the class i choose.
and my SA1 liek that liao..
no chance liao lah..
what a...!!
yea, anything you say devil.
i am not gonna give up,
but glorify God name.
don't put thoughts like,
what if..
but if its really like that?
so study works?
church helps?
serving God is a waste of time..
i don't care!
i reject all this thoughts and continue my life..
i know i can do it.
please, if you want to say smthing bad,
don't tell me.
maybe its hard for you,
but.. this really affects me.
say smthing encouraging...
i am really in a very weird mood.
so, sorry if i sin agianst anyone,
or make you feel bad.
just, relax.
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... God, i give you everything.
TAKE IT ALL!!
-Xiaowei
11:01 PM