school really sucks!
actually, don't really like the word 'sucks'.
it sounds very rude to me lah.
but today i am so, bad.. haiz.

after a week of peaceful exam,
now back to that sin flood place.
it really make my mood very down.
i didn't try to interect with the class for the whole day,
didn't really laugh,
didn't even move my face!
the whole day i was lying down at my desk,
feeling sad about people doing all kinds of sinful stuff.
AND ITS NOT FUNNY AT ALL!

shen jian came to our class for the 1st period.
my class was like take a kindy long time getting ready.
really annoyed!
shen jian was annoyed too.
the whole class was like ignoring the teacher
and Jordan was equally rude.
i am not gonna say what he say.
just feel sian when i hear all this.
what the! i mean whats going on with you guys?

we were told to sit by our register number.
and TE was like at my left back. hiaz.
i just feel like killing her a moment
and started to cry.
why am i so bad? killing her?
letting her just like that and...
i am just feeling very sad.
even friends who claim that they are christians but they are not!
if i can post about all this, i would type all my feelings out,
and tell what i really am thinking
and this will be like sooo long.
but this will still hurt them.

i was crying to God for all the lost souls in my class.
don't know what to do!

i really need someone who is like me, a CHRISTIAN
accompany me in class and do everything together.
a person that i can go with and tell things with.
the one i can really trust in class.

you know? i have no one to be with in recess.
and i have to go with jialing.
she may be alone too, but * **** ***'* **** **...
all the *********** and ****-************...
really, i am gonna burst like that if i carry on my ways.

i really can't take it anymore,
am i using my own strength to forgive?
am i using my own mind to change things?
i can't take it!!! ah.

i think WX too is facing all this,
a class which is worst than mine.
and ** ** *** *******..

get my results.. haiz.
how good can i get even when i study?

Lit 36/70
-see, just pass. you know what?
jubi look at me and give me a very dissapointed look.
i feel like cryin at that moment.
sorry teacher, i have dissapoint you.

HE 50.5/80
-it will be halfed cause the 60% will be my course work marks.
i didn't hand in my coursework,
so, sure fail.

Sci 47/100
-many carelass mistake like
teacher cannot see what i am writting,
canceling my previous answer,
never draw properly,
never write answer,
write wrong place... LAME lah!
*i am gonna work hard the next half year.
i want to show my dad my results.
i want to let them at least smile.
#btw toh giving me tution..

weiwei;
you say want to help me register tution.
also nv -.-
i think you just tell me how to register can?
i want to go leh..
just tell me, i go myself.
i have been waiting for 5 months...

-Xiaowei

12:27 AM