today called Jayme on 11.30pm,
but no one answer the phone.
thinking of accompany her to church for praise n worship.
then, arg.. nvm loh.

ate 'ABC' macroni soup for lunch,
kind of cute and fun.
i didn't get to finish it all..
so, left some for my dad. =)

way to church,
hp kana bomb...
abit of scary lah.
yubin called me and i told her i reaching.
reached church,
everyone was like, where jayme? where jayme?
weiwei very worried about Jayme and even wait outside for her.
they bomb jayme's hp for like 500 miss call?
no one knows where is Jayme.
i was kindy worried lah, cause where can she be?
i thought she will reach earlier for P&W.

then look around the church,
eh evan really never come leh. =)

everyone have the same face.
worried, worried and worried.
i feel like crying.. sian.
what will happen to her?
we keep thinking about all kinds of situation.
we called her home, she was out!

then service starts,
still very worried about her.
at least a call to us what.
why just like that, w/o infomation.
very scary loh.
but i told myself,
if Jayme was to leave God or me,
i will still follow God,
cause i know He is true.
i can't help thinking of everything.
i was thinking, end times is coming
and i didn't want Jayme to be just like that,
no coming to church and idle around.

while waiting to go into the service,
i was squeeze to one corner.
and my waise was twisted and have to hold there.
but they keep pushing hilly towards me!
my back very pain, but didn't say.
as long as they're comfortable lah =)

i can't help it,
so i go downstairs and wait for Jayme.
then after a while weiwei bring us up agian.
then we pray for her...

i told myself,
no matter what happens,
i will still P&W God with all my heart.
not let other things distract me.
and if i worship with all my heart,
God will start to change things.
if only i put God 1st,
everything will fall into place.
so, i really didn't think about anything,
but concentrate.

after service,
i was still woried about jayme.
everyone was!
didn't have ice breaker,
didn't have discipleship.
we shared our week..
then dawn, winnie and Julian was like talking about the boys.
saying names..
and i was laughing away.
when its abit too over,
ahyi told Dawn that its not right and not nice to do that.
after a few minutes, dawn cried.
everything just happened like that.
ok, didn't want to mention this agian.

1st was Jayme,
2nd was dawn.
i didn't want to see them affected.
or maybe they will just leave me.

we prayed for all the things that is happening now.
and for cell group love.
we have to pray.
no time for fun and laughter.
no time for slacking...
i realise i need to pray more for cell.
its going out of shape.
i don't know what will happen next.

then dawn cry until her hands and legs cannot move.
we prayed for her and her leg can move le.
after that it came back to normal =)
PRAISE THE LORD!

then Jayme was save la.
i was like so happy.
thank you God.
i could not express my joy.
i just cried.
i don't know how to thank God for not letting her go.
cried and cried.
just feel like being with God alone.
praising him.

...
this week our cell help up in catering.
and weiwei give us our roles.
i help in preparing food for service 1.
i was kind of blur loh. x)

then dawn's mum came.
dawn didn't know.
and we prepare the cake then sing birthday song for dawn.
everyone was abit of out of beat. =.=
weiwei prayed for her and we started to take pictures.

erts, ahyi's shirt kana cake agian =.=
every week need to kana one.. haha.
then don't know why they start to play with cream.
ah!! me kana!!ek!

then play with it loh.
gone to washroom and wash my creamy face.
then after that, someone make my face agian.
then go wash agian loh.
after that, we started eating.
then i keep giving ken my food =)
i think ken very cute, hehe.
Mmm, i don't have a crush on him.
but i think i don't treat him good enough.
i was very bad..
i am very dissapointed to myself.
how could i do this.
i give my eaten food to him.
i think i was bad lah.
i should give him the best.
i don't know, i just think i could do better.
i should treat everyone better.
THE BEST.

walked to bustop with hilly.
as in, beside him.
ya, i was talking to him.
then 173-ed home.
i feel very giddy!!

-Xiaowei

7:32 AM