Friday, June 22, 2007
i want to hug him.
i want to kiss him.
i want to play with him.
i want to talk to him.
i want to hold his hands.
i want him to smile.
i want him to feel loved.
i want him to be happy.
i want him to enjoy.
i want him to be blessed.
i want him to be filled with joy for this moment.
i want him back to daddy...
i always say that his love for me is not how i want to be loved.
i always say he is forcing me.
i always say his love is for something.
i always say he didn't care for me.
but what did i do for him?
i did nothing.
keep receiving, no giving.
i know he loves me and i love him too..
its just how to express it.
missunderstandings.
what can i do now?
its over, no turning back.
even when i want to ask something simple,
i don't know how to open my mouth.
it took me weeks to have the courage.
crying and blaming myself.
cry?
I ONLY KNOW HOW TO CRY!
seriously i don't know what to do.
i want to help.
-Xiaowei
5:20 AM