sick since last Thursday, having flu and cough.
quite serious and look as if i am dying..
doctor said i have to have enough rest
and no exercise & sport from 20-26 July.

i didn't rest that much, but slept only for 3 hours.
prepared chocolate fondue thing and pray with cell at night.
school on Friday and overnight prayer in weiwei house.
very cold at night.
church on Saturday and i was actively praising God.
went home late again..
i couldn't sleep since 2am+, thought of calling someone.
i could feel the pain in my head and my whole body.
drag the time by walking around my house.

my parents were about to go to the market and they saw me.
fever!
although i am in pain and no strength to do a lot of things,
i try my best to prepare myself to go to Church and help cafe.
if i don't go, Adeline might no be able to cope or too busy.
its also my responsibility.

i drag myself there and walk like a zombie.
i don't even have to strength to smile and greet people.
"wa, today why so emo?"
i help up in some of the setup and totally don't know what i am doing.
after i put all the money in the cashier, weiwei give my some money for cab fee.
she didn't want to to take bus home.

went home, take temperature.
guess what? 39.5○c!!!
so high cans...
i feel very very cold, but my whole body is hot.
i can't wear jacket or blanket or anything that will make me feel warm,
if i do, the heat will not gone.
i have to bear with the cold and in the same time,
wash up with cold water, wipe face with ice water.
i repeated it for a lot of times..
its a torture to me T.T

that night, my uncle brought packets and packets of durians for us.
i can't eat that.

i didn't go school on Monday cause my fever still remains in 39○c onwards..
this time, i ate panadol.
i don't know how to swallow a pill and i am afraid of it.
my mum always force me to swallow it and i will get chock or stuck.
but that day, she smash it.

dad came home with crabs and i am so excited.
asked him if i can eat it too.
my mum said i can't, i am so dissapointed.
but i am allowed only to eat one piece.
i cannot eat anything except the steam white pork.
all the other things on the table is fried and chilli stuff.

today, which was Tuesday, i also never come to school.
wonder if my classmates miss me or worry about me.

my dad couldn't stand me being so sick and want me to go to the clinic.

i have a high fever and doctor afraid that it might be dengue fever.
if my fever have not gone, i have to take a blood test tomorrow.
i didn't take a blood test before.
i am so afraid that it will be so painful.
doctor gave me a 2 day MC, so tomorrow i will not be coming to school tomorrow too..
and unfit for exercise & sport for 2 weeks, 26 July-8Aug.

i didn't online for so long also because i am too tired to on the computer and look at the screen.
i need a lot of rest.

what you can do is to keep encourage me and PRAY.

-Xiaowei

9:12 PM