i don't want anything to happen to me right now.
living in the world of all these desires.
if anything happens, what will happen to my disciple, the souls God has plan for me?
i have to be responsible.
i don't want chance to just go like this.
because i am lazy, 1 soul was gone.
for such a lame reason. i don't want that.

sometimes i wonder if it is better for me to go to some girl's school.
ya, day dreaming, how can i? with my PSLE results...
ok, surely everyone will be tempted by guys right?
if i put a guy in front of you, wouldn't you start building castles?
i have survived my 1st year.
the 6-24 months thing start again... i know it is a lie.
i am going to just wait till it stops.
so, stop encouraging anything that is bad for me.
don't even come and talk to me about it.
it will be a joke after a few months...

boys running around me, saying all these decorated words.
why can't you guys just stop all these lies?
yes, i might smile, but i hate it!
stop walking around me, trying chances to talk to me.
STOP TEMPTING ME!
just go away..

ya, anything, say i am shy.
say i am scared of you.
i just don't want things to get bad.
making ourselves away for God.
lets keep it clear.
i have to be clean myself right?

i am not scared of boys, i can do anything if i want.
i just want a distance.

-Xiaowei

-Xiaowei

10:59 PM