nowadays i keep dreaming!!
i feel so weird, and all the dreams are all about bgr
i think i should go to the bgr workshop le.. haha
last night i dream about someone (i don't know who) who is my husband.
iyo, another husband, i counted that i have 3 husbands.
ey, that's not funny lo =.=
ok, back to the dream... haha.
we have a room and its in a shopping mall, haha!
i remember he is not very handsome, lol.
and in that dream i have this thought 'why would i marry him?'
but i love him, lol. i don't know what is going on.
i tell you, dreams are very scary in times.

i have dream that my mum was dead,
she was dead in a tsunami and i couldn't believe it.
hey cg, remember? i shared it to you guys..
its very different.. its so real.
my mum was dead!! and i was like praying.
'oh Lord, i can't take it, how i wish this was a dream'
and immediately i woke up! you know how amazing God is?
everything is not blur, its so real AND I WOKE UP!
its just a dream.. i cried in my bed.
i can't wait to see my mum back from work.
i really thank God very much.
haha, now i feel like crying le...

another dream is when i was in primary school,
my dad was shot dead right in front of me.
he was on a cruise.. and i was so afraid and crying.
i woke up, told my mum while crying.
hug my dad and told him my dream. haha

i have counted, i meet almost 5 people i don't know in my dreams
they are all male... its weird.
i met derrick, ken pua, jiahao, wilson also =.=
seriously, something must be wrong.

last night, i also dream about my brother.
he was dead, my big brother.
i don't know, i feel so lost.
i feel so sad and i wanted to hug him.
i wanted to irritate him again.
i want him to scold me. i don't know what to do.
i was looking at his picture and thinking about him.
its so real, i can't believe its a dream.
it all happen so fast, but it was a dream...

these dreams really make me have an experience
on what i will feel when my love ones was gone..
it was bad, sometimes i hope time just stop and
i don't need to see them getting older and older.
i am sure these are dreams that God allow me to have.
he want me to treasure my loved ones and in the same time,
telling me that time won't wait for me to get ready.
i have to start cutting the trees, right into it.
i have to start to share the gospel to save their souls.
i always wanted God to show me how He felt,
and i don't even know He is showing me now.

there is no time left,
do you know everyday, there is someone dying?
and everyday, God has to cry like how i cry in my bed.
NO MORE! no more pain.

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hey qiongmin, sorry ya..
i dragged so long to answers these questions.. xD
qiongmin tagged me and i have to do this survey..
lets see if you guys are really read this..
cause usually i would read only some of the questions.
too long right? haha
but this actually works well if you want to understand the person.
happy reading!

TAGGED BY : QiongMin :D
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1)If your Lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
Ans: Know the reason and end the relationship, don't play play..
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2)If you can have a Dream to come true, what would it be?
Ans: I WANT TO BE A SINGER!
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3)What will your dream wedding to be like?
Ans: I want it to be personal, with all my relatives and friends there with me.
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4)What do you love most about being in school?
Ans: To be able to understand the teacher when everyone else was stuck, to get to see and talk to my friends, wearing the uniform, walking back home!
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5)What's your ideal lover like?
Ans: haha xD TAKE NOTE! you have to be tall, look nice to me, fun in the same time you can be serious, work hard, to be able to feed me and i like you.
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6)Would you study hard or play hard?
Ans: both =D
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7)How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
Ans: I dont' know, just wait.
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8)If the person you secretly liked is already attached , what would you do?
Ans: actually, quite sad. xD
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9)Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
Ans: holidays
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10)Do you believe in love eternity?
Ans: yes!
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11)What qualities do you think you should have if you're a leader?
Ans: Let others see their own potential and destiny, provide everyone an opportunities to lead, not afraid to do the 'dirty' job, 'everyone can lead' mindset..
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12)Who are currently most important people to you?
Ans: Family
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13)What do you hate the most?
Ans: read the things in my blog and you will see..
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------14)In 3 words,describe your now self.
Ans: Exciting princess life!
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15)What's the first thing you do every morning?
Ans: think about what i have done yesterday or my dreams
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16)Would you give all in a relationship?
Ans: yes :D
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17)If you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?
Ans: I will choose the one who loves me more.
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18)What type of friendship do you like?
Ans: A friendship that will stay long forever
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19)What is your favourites past time hobby?
Ans: Barbie dolls
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20)What type of friends do you dislike?
Ans: hm.. i am ok ba..
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8 people to be tagged by me : nobody xD

-Xiaowei

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