ytd was really really really my worst days!
seriously.. i have never had that feeling before..

i think he realised that i am ignoring him, haha
he either come and talk to me, or i will continue ignoring him =D
maybe i will talk to him only when i am out of this school.
after recess, saw him outside my class, lol
didn't look, just went back to me seat.
and my worst worst thing came... ahhhhhhhhhh

i started to feel very uncomfortable, tired.
went to toilet for two times during phy class.
and i didn't talk at all, so uncomfortable.
my stomach became to be painful!

i drag myself to chem class, dying...
i was very cold, but sweating.
the fan in the lab was like ice to me.
its more than cold, its freezing and i can feel the pain.
i can't help it, i need to rest.
Chelsea accompanied me to the sick bay =)
walking down to the office was a chore, argh.

i cannot forget this..
when i was standing outside the door,
i walk away, because it was tooooooooo cold!!!
it was more than snow city to me.
i dare not to come in, insist to sit outside.
decided to go to the toilet to try my luck again.
i tell you, my stomach is very painful!!
i sat on the toilet bowl for 1 whole period!!
my body was shaking, leg numb, sweating, but feel cold.
i cannot take it, wa, torture sia..!!

i started to imagine how hell was, i know it's more than this.
and i started to pray, 'Lord, please.. take it away!!'
i promised to read my bible.. haha!!
really, i was so sincere...
i told God i will seek him everyday.
'please please please...'
and God take it away.. =D haha
what a torture.

lie down on the table outside the general office, T.T
met ram in the canteen, didn't really wanted to talk to him.
cause i was so tired and weak, and i have no strength to talk to him.
i wanted to find my brother to buy food for me...
no use, couldn't find him, nvm.. i force myself back to class.

quite a few people ask where we i,
really no strength to explain so much,.......'sickbay'
sleep for one period.. haha! i am okay now! =D
i just need that rest period.. hehe.

i always try to go home straight after school,
cause i don't want to see him in my class, haha.
i don't like the weird feeling, don't know what to do.

drank vitagen, i didn't dare to eat anything.
but i was too hungry..
so, i decided to eat the plain bread.

at night, my bro decided to clear his room himself!
rare chance, i went in too.. haha
looking at him, he just give we whatever he wants to throw!
and all these things are so new and nice..
he even gave me everything that concerns God..
i saw his file, wow!! he keep every single 'GO!' paper inside!
it was full of that paper and lyrics!!
i wonder where does his passion has gone..
he even gave me his life application bible and his small bible.
he take so good care of it! =D

today morning, wake up at 5.30am!!
i forgot that our school starts at 8.30 today =.=
i actually meet my brother to do homework tgr,
but he didn't came.. so i went to his room, haha.
went back to his room at 7pm, 'you are going to be late!!'
haha, i didnt know i am that fool.

try to eat oat, almost vomit it out.
i love oat usually.. but now..
i think its ytd's ba.
i left the whole bowl on the table and went to school
half way to school, i shouted 'aiyah!!'
realised i came too early.. lol
saw shuifatt behind me =D

i love talking to people like, shuifatt, gerald, ka-sheng, joel, chunjie..
all these quiet people lah, xD they need to communicate more.

try doing my amaths.. erts.
i failed my amaths.. i think i want to go tuition le.
i have to sign up asap, but i don't like tuition =.=
nvm, for my results.. =D

saw him walk past my class, decided to walk to the back of the class.
hide lah, haha!
but actually i wanted to talk to choon hui..
hmya, and i decided to go back to choir!!
have the courage to talk to the teacher about it.

actually i feel weird about coming back, haha
but baoqun accompanied me all along..
and the emmuael? haha. didn't get his name..
we have fun tgr and keep laughing, lol
we are crapping and qiongmin didn't get it.
exchanged things with Qm..
sang two songs, and i have learned it all the first lessons =)
baoqun 'wa, you sing so loud!'

yes! you must sing loud what! =.=
if you want to perform then you have to go through this stage.
to sing loud in front of the teacher..
if not loud enough, we sing for?
during performances, i think choir didn't really sing loudly..
they should sing LOUDER!!! haha
syf, got COP =.= still want to slack.
even though this is my first day, but.. quite weird.
because iw as the senior, teacher keep asking me questions.
cause the teacher was new and she thought i came long ago xD
quite weird that jinglei was the chairman.. haha!
if i didn't go away, i might be the chairman ba.
and i can get more points leh!!
quite regret listening to weiwei(anti-cca), haha!

just now accompanied my brother to buy sandals =D
he bought the same one as hongwei's and derrick's
he felt uncomfortable wearing it.. haha
then we went to emi's cake shop!!!!
my favourite!!! wahahaha
i wanted to accompany him to his work place..
but he didn't want me to go..
haha, keep 'sa jiao' at home xD i really want to go too.
he rejected me, but he don't want me to went home w/o nothing.
so, he bought me a durian crepe from emi's!! woot!

today's dinner...
as usual, my neighbour always bring extra food over.
today, its 'yan er'.. the dessert and one pot of..
i don't want what it called, with a lot of things inside.

-fish head (cut and deep fried)
-soup
-red chili
-'ching jiao'
-tomato
-mushroom
-toufu
-3layer pork =.=

it looks quite weird ba..
but the colours are very nice.
everything was placed nicely.. wahaha
tried the fish head, very nice! =D

-Xiaowei

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