yeah, finally.. i went to audition for teacher's day.
sadly, not for freehandz, but for singing.
i sang fall for you from second serenade =)
i am so excited for the comments part,
truthfully, i was shaking the way through the song.
Miss chua said my voice was nice,
HOWEVER, haha.. wrong song.
heard waikit sing too, its nice, haha.
he is so shy to sing the bridge, which is the best part!

miss chua give me a chance to change my song.
i didn't know what to sing, so i decided to ask help from Mr tan
the reason is the song.. its quite old, but i will give it a try.
i was forcing myself to memories the lyrics and get the song right.
i have to go for another round of audition on friday!!

heng, miss chua shifted it to monday..
however, i didn't meet any of them through the weekends.
i don't even know joyce is singing a not,
i dislike uncertain answers, so i was kind of confused.

i cried on wednesday..
someone gossip about me to my brother.
saying that i want to be the chairman choir and not allowing people to sing with me.
i want to be the chairman because i want the points and the singing part was joking..
iya, i am sick and tired of answering these things..
let it be, if you guys love to sin and destroy lives..
i am not going to give you all anymore attention. =.=
because you are not saying base on the problem, but me.

i am sad because my school mates involves my family.
if you want to spread rumours or whatsoever,
please don't tell my family, to increase misunderstanding.
if there is really something wrong, please bring me out to talk with me.
i really cannot take it when something is happening in my family,
even if its minor!

i know i cannot handle my feelings myself,
i smsed weiwei and met dawanling.
i wanted to meet wanling so much that i smsed her at night.
we meet at around 10pm, i told her what has happened
she talk to me, console me and prayed for me.
she even cried while talking to me.

her words really struck me so much.
Christian who really follow God walks in the narrow path,
while others walk in the big road.
thats why its difficult and lonely.
and every problem is a potential for me to have a testimony.

i know i will have a huge mountain coming in my way.
i prayed for problems know? haha.
because i know struggles will make me grow and be strong.
i will go through this obstacles and grow stronger. =)

this week's sermon was about lying.
what struck me most was silence.
being silence when you know that people is lying is a sin.
so, i decided not to keep my mouth shut,
i am going to be the one who stand out for the truth.
yeah, i know its hard.. cause more people will hate me.
eg. my class lied about not knowing there is a test, i will not join them, but say the truth
in this way, people will dislike me =.=
so, its quite a challenge to me to have the moral courage.

lying is just for convenience purpose.
because it will save us from further trouble.
but its a deadly sin!!
so, even if its a norm, i will try not to lie.

eh, i am not perfect.
so, correct me if i lie ok =)
that will help a lot..

i feel like i was hanged just now.
kumyong found a pail outside the cafe.
and there were still cloth inside!
he look at me, with no expression
i don't really know what can i do to save myself.
i seriously don't like people to get angry,
and kumyong is one of those who cannot mess with one..
haha!! i didn't say anything.
just walk to him and help him take the pail.
he didn't talk to me!! he didn't say anything, and walk away..
i am dead.

'who forgot?' he asked.
i was screaming in my heart.. deaddead.
it was my area and i am in charge. so... argh.
'its me lah..' i said.
waiting for the scolding.. aww..
'i know its not you, who take the pail out?'
i didn't take the pail out. heng.

i thought i was dead know? sure dead kind.
woah..

-Xiaowei

5:12 AM