I once told myself that i would not join choir in any school anymore. haha. Its just a new challenge for myself. BUT!!! when i came across a video of Ngee Ann poly choir members performing my favourite song (i believe), i have this urge to join choir all over again!

I know im not a full-attendance member of my previous choir group, but i enjoyed every session of singing together with the choir. :D I guess, im not a bad senior uh? I wanted to join a better choir, where im a real noob and people will teach me how to sing in a proper way. I don't want to be teaching people how to be in tune and all that, its not what i wanted to do. I remember thinking twice if i should join choir, because my Secondary school choir gets a bronze for their SYF. Although my primary school got only a silver, but i wanted my time in that cca to be fruitful and not struggling with pitch-dead people.

Im really serious about this, im not looking down on anyone. As long as its your passion, go for it! Even when you can't sing, just go for it! Its just my own preference on my own choices. I want to learn and not be held back by the group. i regret joining bvss choir.

I was thinking of going back to my old hobby, which is dancing! well, i gain a lot of weight all those years. I bet most of the dancers are slim and i do agree that slim dancers look nicer when they dance! haha. I gotta break this misconceptions of dancing. I see really fat people dance too, and im so proud of them. Dancin takes lots of confidence, because it celebrates your body and its also about showing the art of our body movements. well, its more than this.. but i guess my struggle is about my body. Say im insecure, whatever. I don't need to be judge by anyone, i know its my struggle and i admit it. Nobody likes people who keeps pointing fingers and telling the obvious. I guess even slim people thinks theyre fat. LOL!

uh, not only my body, but my performance. Im not using my past experience to boast about my potential achievements, cause its more than a decade ago. I had dance experience for 4 years when i was young, but i have no achievements AT ALL. Nothing to be proud of. The prob is... ngee ann's dance group is rather BIG! so.. i was thinking of not joining them too. hais.

i was looking through the Ngee Ann poly website looking for an attractive CCA. well, after that.. i went to look around the site for more info of the school. urm... and i found out a very very ugly truth. T^T

IM NOT IN THE SCHOOL OF BUSINESS AND ACCOUNTANCY!!! LOL!!! all the while i thought int supply chain was under sch of BA man =.= so much for being so happy that i will meet friends there. Zzzz.. SIAN!! hais. well.. im in the sch of engineering. haiss :( but at least i knew the truth earlier, or i will really get a shock of my life during orientation. haha.

sian........................................................ :(

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